Mangifera Paradoxus

Letting go

2010-11-26T09:40:00.002+11:00

The Way is shaped by use,

But then the shape is lost.

Do not hold fast to shapes

But let sensation flow into the world

As a river courses down to the sea.

~Tao Te Ching; 32 Shapes

Smile

2009-06-08T14:20:00.004+10:00

Plagarised from... http://spykate.deviantart.com/art/Smile-80063452

Smile

2009-06-08T14:10:00.002+10:00

Plagarised from... http://dottydotcom.deviantart.com/art/smile-64061822

Por favor

2009-06-08T10:50:00.005+10:00

I want to be me!
Will this world let me be!?
I want them to see...
But I ain't free, to hide or flee.

To intergrate,
Is to complicate.
They congregate,
And constipate.

The bonds that bind,
Holds me behind.
You look to find,
But, you are too blind.

You talk the talk,
But can you walk the walk?
Nay, you just gawk,
And squawk and squawk.

You sit and mock,
From under a rock,
You think you shock,
Tick tock tick tock!

So please snigger and snort,
I won't take it to heart,
I'll be a sport,
Coz life's too short!!!

A birthday wish for dad...

2008-08-30T18:00:00.004+10:00

Dad your great,
We'd like to say - Thank You,
In more than one way,
Happy Birthday!

For the little things,
And the big things,
That words fail to say...
The scoldings,
The hugs - and,
The love we received.

From the very first day,
We crawled into mum's hands,
You stood by,
And smiled at us...

Your eyes said everything,
Even if you didn't - we,
Didn't understand then,
But we do now.

You nutured us,
Made us grow,
Watched us walk.
We'd follow,
Your footsteps - and,
Wait at the door.

We'd cry to amma - and,
Ask where you went.
But you'd never left,
Beside us every step of the way (in life).

We're celebrating,
Your birthday milestone,
Dear appa, we'd like to say,
Hope you have the best birthday!!!

To our extraordinary dad!

Kudos to my li'l' cousin sis' and to the INcredible.

Friends

2008-06-27T08:36:00.003+10:00

Plagarised from... http://boobookittyfuck.deviantart.com/art/i-can-always-make-you-smile-1950599

Smile

2008-04-26T19:30:00.001+10:00

Plagarised from... http://wings-of-a-messiah.deviantart.com/art/Smile-33999904

என் முதல் கவிதை...

2008-04-11T06:20:00.005+10:00

"றோட்டு" மேல போறான் ஒரு கேடி
அவன் வளர்க்கிறான் "பிரஞ்சு" தாடி
அவன் கையில இருக்கு வெள்ளை பீடி
அதால் ஆகப்போறான் சீக்கிரமா "பாடி"

தினந்தோறும் டப்பாங்கூத்து ஆடி
தெருவெல்லாம் கானாப்பாட்டு பாடி
அந்த கேடிமேல கண்ண வச்சாள் "லேடி"
அவள் போகப்போறாள் அவனோட ஓடி

கேடி சீதனமா கேட்டுப்புட்டான் கோடி
அத கேட்ட இடமோ மாடி...
கோபத்தாலே தள்ளிவிட்டா "லேடி"
கேடி ஆகிப்புட்டான் உடனே "பாடி"

பேராசை பெருநட்டம் தம்பி
நீ போகாதே பெண்களை நம்பி...
பின்னால் பத்திக்கொண்டு எரியுமே கும்பி
அதால் நீ அழுவாய் வெம்பி வெம்பி!

கேடயக் குறிப்பு: எந்தக் கருத்துக்களும் பொதுவானவை அல்ல, தொப்பி சரியா இருக்கிறவங்க மட்டும் போட்டுக்கொள்ளலாம். ;)

இதை நான் என்ன யோசனையில் எழுதினேன் என்று தெரியவில்லை... என்ன அற்புதமான தமிழ!? ஹீஹீஹீ...

கல்லூரி காலத்தை நினைவூட்டிய நிமலுக்கு நன்றி!

Vegetarian Porgressive Grindcore!!!

2008-04-06T08:26:00.002+10:00

Bahahaha...

... thanks SlipKnut!

Meeru Emi Chesthunaaru!!?

2008-03-20T13:56:00.005+11:00

What was,
Does not matter!

What could be,
'Tis just chatter...

What is,
You should treasure!

Loose not faith,
Hope for better...

'Cos worries
Don't last forever!!!

அவளினடி...

2008-03-19T13:38:00.003+11:00

அடித்தாள்,
கோபம் வந்தது.
அரவணைப்பாளென்றெதிர்பார்த்தேன்,
மீண்டும், அடித்தாள்!!
பொறுத்தேன்...

கலங்கிய கண்கள் எரிந்தன
உவர் நீர் வழிந்து,
வறுமையாயிருந்த நாவில் தாகத்தை அதிகரித்தது.
அடியின் வலிமையால், உடல் நொந்தேன்
அடித்தாள்!!!
தன் கரங்களால் எனை சூழ்ந்தாள்,
தினறினேன்.

அடித்தாள்!
சிரித்தேன்.
அடியின் வலியில் துன்பம் மறந்தேன்.
அவளுடன் இருக்கும் பொழுது,
யாரும் என்னை எதுவுமே செய்ய முடியாதல்லவா?

அந்த நொடிக்காக வாழ்வது எத்தனை சுலபம்,
கடலன்னையின் மடியிலிருக்கையிலே!

Grow up!!!

2008-03-17T14:03:00.009+11:00

Arrgh!

It irks me so,
To see the people seem to loose their maturity as they get older; rather than gain more...
I mean seriously you'd think that when problems arise they'd take at least a few minutes to sit down and ponder on where they went wrong, rather than find a scapegoat and send them to slaughter!

Why can't people get off their "high horse", I mean not even to ask for forgiveness; but to just take a few minutes and try to understand why others are doing what they are doing; maybe you did something wrong and that is reflected in their actions. As far as I have seen, that is the case.
Nobody suddenly ignores you; unless they've lost their marbles or turned into a vegetable.

Is it that hard to let go of your pride?
I was just reading suchetha's post and going yeah, it's possible to let go of your pride, it should be easy especially when loved ones are involved; but i guess it was just my way of thinking.

As soon as there's and issue; everyone goes on blaming the sun, the moon, the bus driver, the sales clerk... they (we) are all perfect aren't we?
We never make mistakes, if something goes wrong it has to be someone else's fault; OBVIOUSLY!!!

Gah!

A Bewitching Smile

2008-01-13T17:10:00.000+11:00

She scares,

and works magical wonders that light you up,

with a radiance, that nothing can beat!

(As my yaar says,) Keep Smiling!

The Tale of a Tear

2008-01-08T13:45:00.000+11:00

As a wildspitfire once said...

Ultimately,

it all breaks down,

to perspective.

Once upon a weekend...

2007-12-11T00:32:00.000+11:00

I had nothing much to do this weekend; so when the INcredible asked me, I agreed to attending Multifaith Multicultural Youth Forum by the Victorian Government. It was a nice change from the regular weekends which generally consist of oversleeping and running around to try to get things done; or trying to organise some event or the other.

Woke up later than intended (as usual) and ended up running to catch public transport last minute. After the usual bus and train ride to the city, we met up at Flinder's. Since INcredible had been there for an hour already, and surveyed the route, we were able to comfortably walk there. The architecture of the building was lovely, so yeah, I spent part of the day there staring at the ceiling and the walls.

The MC was really funny and kept the ball rolling smoothly (we later on discovered that he was from the same university as us, and further pestering showed us that the reason we had never seen him was because he was an off-campus student). After a few talk sessions, our group was taken to the council chambers. Whilst my contribution to the discussion wasn't much; I did get to see through other's eyes and learn a little more about other cultures.

The food whilst not excellent wasn't too bad. During lunch break we went for a walk (INcredible people can't stand fusion music apparently :P) with our new friend Rachel. I do say the city's better on weekends; more relaxed and calm. Plus the weather was excellent!!!

There were a few more talks and events. And the day concluded without too many glitches. As usual I left my jacket behind and had to go fetch it! Caught the train home. Lots of anecdotes were exchanged; what a relief it is to be able to converse in one's native tongue!

Quite a nice day. Oh yeah, and I was handed a copy of "The Kite Runner"; looks promising. Ok I'll get around to that rant soon, keep checking.

வளைவழகே!

2007-12-02T17:22:00.001+11:00

நீ, நான், பிணைந்து; உலகம் மறந்து!

Main aisa kyon hoon?

2007-12-02T16:46:00.000+11:00

Why am I like this?
Constantly reaching for you?
I can see you,
Feel you,
But I cannot touch you.

You are part of my world,
You are my world,
Your fingers tease me,
So light one moment,
A storm the next.

Your smile,
Oh your smile,
Nothing is as bright as it,
Not even a million gems put together,
Can be as bright.

So bright,
Giving energy,
My source of life,
Brightening my world,
Brightening me.

I will never reach you,
That is not my destiny,
It is to look on forever,
Watch your eternal beauty,
Reaching, forever...

Tu-mul-tuo-us Two Twenty Two

2007-11-27T17:33:00.000+11:00

"Eh, what gibberish?" you say. You are right; partially...

I started blogging seriously two years ago, on this very same date. Wow, that must mean I'm twenty two! OMG!! It's been over a year since I blogged!!? Oh well, I guess I'll make up for it by increasing the frequency of my blogs... ;)

Why haven't I been blogging? No internet access from home, university, work, fun, laziness take your pick. Change was necessary, but I'm back, with a few twists. I'm going to not only post about geeky or amusing events; but add rants and reminiscence, and while I'm at it, I'll throw in poetry to the mix as well.

How was the past year? In one word?
Tumultuous.

Am I wiser for it? If knowing what mistakes not to make, makes you wise; then I am!

What happened? A lot!
Studies, work, friends, barbeque's, fights, boo boos, visits to the hospital, parties, fights, loneliness, depression, long walks at midnight, weight loss, fights, weight gain, xenophobia, making ups, laziness, regrets, motivation, sport and fun.

I'm too lazy to put all of it down in detail. Plus as Mettavihari said, "You can't open your heart in a blog. It's what it's there for, but it's the one place you can't". I'll try to put this to test, only time can tell though.

The year's been a blast though, even though I have a few regrets, I wouldn't have found out the things I know now if it weren't for the 'issues' that cropped up; thanks to a few souls who've held my hand while I was weeping, babysat me while I as mucking about in my own poo, and given me a good kick in the groin when I needed it. Couldn't have done it without them! Wow, you tend to notice the good things you have when things don't go too well, aye? Friends, I'm lucky to have them, that's all I can say!

Change is necessary. I don't believe in fate, but I do in change; thus I've changed. "For better or for worse?" you ask, well I don't really know, nor do I care. I happy being who I am. The core still remains the same, I'm a xenophobe after all!

Hehe, lets see what the next year has in store...
A little birdie told me 'tis gonna be sunshine... I believe! ;)

Expect a few rants soon!

Oops I did it again!

2006-08-31T21:21:00.000+10:00

No this is NOT a post on Obejcts Oriented Programming System.
Nor one about the song.

This is just to let you know that I go (try to) play tennis with my uncle and aunt semi-regularly.
And **drumroll** I ripped my pants... twice! ("dagnabbit' I need to loose weight!)

But playing tennis is fun, so is panting and puffing and trying to catch up with my uncle and aunt when they go for a jog. ;-D

Lost in th wilderness...!

2006-08-15T16:02:00.000+10:00

My uncle and aunt recommended that I try to find my way to uni, so I set off the next day with a map and a bus pass (for zone1) and some cash, "just in case". I was supposed to catch 3 buses to get there.

The first bus ride went fine. Just a short ride to the next stop. Got down, saw the next bus I had to catch... and ran to the halt to catch it. As soon as I got on the bus, I found that the zone 1 ticket wasn't valid and I had to get another ticket; then "luckily" the bus was also going in the wrong direction! And I found myself getting down at Monash University, not to be found on my map.(Yepee doodle doo?)

After standing at the halt for 10mins and taking a breather, I started walking towards the junction. Found some friendly people who pointed me the way back to "square one". And then set off again. This time I caught the correct bus and ended up in uni.

Took a look at the uni, and also the buidling where I had to go next day for orientation.
Caught the bus home, and walked the last bit... ;-D to be on the safe side!

ASka in the land of OZ...

2006-07-12T15:32:00.000+10:00

[The beginning]

Long long ago... So long ago... Actually just a week back, I traded my warm toilet seat in Colombo for a ice-cold one in Melbourne. Yes folks, I've left... To continue my studies, and as someone said once...

"There's no where like /home"

And here goes how it all happened...

The incidents of the past few weeks are all a blur. I applied, got the visa, paid the fees, left my work (THINKcube), finished work on and released babytux digest, and then caught the plane to Sydney on the 7th.

[Flying and Food]

The journey was fine, apart from being a wee bit cramped the plane was kewl! It was my first time on Singapore Airlines... So I enjoyed the Inflight Entertainment. The first flight was at midnight so I got dinner, which was Lamb Goulash (yeah I know, I ATE LAMB!) and a Fruit Spitzer (tasted like pure apple juice to me... ;-D ). I slept for an hour and woke up just before touch down at Singapore. I didn't stay there long since the transit was only 2 hours, and it took me 1 hour to reach the other end. Caught the next flight which was rather long, and ate Rice and Fish Curry while watching "She's the Man", fell asleep and woke up to have an Ice-cream just before the plane landed.

I was met by my Aunt and family at the airport. And realised how fast time went... Last time my cousins were so small, and now they were all grown up. 11 years had just whizzed by. After the usual greetings, we left for there house. On the way my aunt decided to pick up a pizza from Dominos(compared to the ones I used to eat this one was spiceless...). The journey to their house was uneventful. When we got there we had dinner. Then I played soccer (No! Not physically ;-P) but on the PlayStation with Yadhavan. After that I played the piano they had for a while, talked to my uncle and aunt, then went to bed.

[Homebush and Hungry Jack's]

The next day I woke up to find that it was 1100Hrs OMG... It was almost the middle of the afternoon, and it looked like just after dawn, then I remembered... I had landed smack in the middle of winter! Then I went and had an ice-cold (when I say ice-cold I mean really ice-cold! Literally!) and had breakfast. Then we went shopping, for the small things that I had forgotten to bring, we went to various places, like a super market(where I got an electric shaver, odds and ends, etc.), and a mall (where I got another jumper). Then I was taken to Hungry Jack's where we had chicken baguettes, a little spicy and familiar taste so enjoyed it. After that they showed me around Sydney Town, and then I got to see the Sydney Opera House. Quite a treat, (though my cousins say they had had enough of it, since my uncle and aunt always take visitors there :-D ) We took some photos there, as well as at the botanical gardens nearby. It was getting late so we had to leave...

On the way home we had to pick up some food and spices from a Sri Lankan populated area in Sydney called Home Bush. At dinner I found out that you could buy all kinds of Sri Lankan food there... "Home made food, away from home!" ;-)
We got home, and I started playing soccer with Yadhavan again, when another uncle and an aunt (brother and sister) dropped in. Dinner had a mix of many Lankan dishes, of which I ate a lot... And go the wheeze, thanks to the ice-cold bath it was even worse. After re-packing clothes, and spending some time talking to them I went to bed.

Next morning, I caught the plane (at the last minute... Though because of that I didn't have to pay for extra luggage ;-D ) and landed in Melbourne.

[M-m-m-melbourne C-c-c-cold]

As soon as I landed I found that biggest suitcase had split, and was struggling to get it off when my uncle and aunt turn up and help me with it. Somehow we managed to get the whole thing in one peace to my uncle's car; and then we had to go to the doctor, because my wheeze was getting worse... :-(

After spending a pretty penny at an after hours clinic, we got some medicine at the pharmacy; and walked ( I had to run, and was still several meters behind my uncle and aunt...) to a shopping centre nearby, and had 'sub' at Subway. Quite filling, and lots of vegies... One of the few sandwitches with that amount of vegie really (at least that's all I've seen). After lunch (rather late one at 4 p.m. ;-) ) I was taken to my university, to scout the place. I liked the architecture. We took a look around, and then left for home. On the way back, I was shown the bus stops that I would have to use to get to the university. Got home, changed and went to bed. That's how I ended up in Melbourne.

Women, Walking and Window Shopping...

2006-05-28T14:10:00.000+10:00

Hey folks!!! Most of you will be expecting another "geeky" post... if so you may be dissapointed... ;^) I have decided to include not-so-geeky posts (without photographs even!) and maybe even some creatvie works as well... anyway here goes...

Anu, Madu, Dinesh and I decided to meetup, since Madu was down from India; and it was a long time since we had seen each other. So anyway I called up Anu to ask for details... and she tells me that they have to do some shopping as well, and would I and Dinesh mind accompanying them (why oh why didn't that warning bell go off in my head.!?), since it was a brief detour; and we could go have lunch afterwards... I (foolishly?) agreed...

Anyway the day was bright and full of sunhine (and hope?) when I set of to the "meet-up"; when disaster strikes... I find out dinesh can't make it :-o. (Our valiant hero ploughs on...) I get to MC and they turn up. First we take the escalator ride up to the first floor; Anu immediately decides that she wants popcorn... we take the stairs down to basement and go buy popcorn there.

Well after that we go upstairs again... to cut a long story short... "round and round the mulberry bush" would be saying it all ;^) anyway by the time MC ran out of shops (bookstores, fancy trinket shops and clothes stores) we had been there for 2 hours (and been walking all the time :'-( ). We decide to leave for lunch when I'm reminded that a trip to Romafour is due (oh the joy!? :'-( )

Well Romafour turns out to have nothing of interest either... and it's now raining outside... we wait for the rain to subside (this is the monsoon season...); I cajoled them into catching a bus to the restaurant. Getting of the bus we realise the rain hasn't subsided yet... so we (I ;-D) decide to dash to the restuarant from the bus halt... and get drenched (the cream on the cake eh?) and walk into "Chettinad" wet and soggy.

Well the nice part of the day was the food was excellent! Chicken Fried-Rice, Vegetable Manchurian and Devilled Prawns (note to reader... I'm a fan of food... and Anu almost alway wants [chinese?] rice!) We ate till we could eat no more and left... Anu wanted to go to "Book Lover's Paradise" (a small second-hand bookshop) to look for M&B's. Finding nonee we decide to leave for home; when Madu and Anu decide to go buy a umbrella at "Arpico"... well after that detour another detour to "DSI" was due... Then we went home (actually I didn't; met-up with Nimal went to TLC got Nimal to edit videos, got Bud to work on the Mango OS Installer, dumped some Linux Distro ISOs since TLC had a hard-disk failure and finished some/most of Suchetha's supply of Mountain Dew then went home!).

For the curious between Anu and Madu they had purchased t-shirts, footwear, makeup items and a soft-toy (**rolls eyes). Here's my question to you all...

How come...

When men go shopping, they know what they want, get **exactly*** what they want and do it minimal time possible...

While women go shopping, they don't know what they are looking for, get sooo many things that find their way to the back of the closet until an search party is oraganised, and take most of the day to do it

?

Now for the flame wars... :-D